Why Bother????

As I sit down to write this next entry I wonder how many people will even ever read it...and my next thought (negative as it may be) is "why bother?'  Why bother writing down my feelings and the ups and downs of this process for all the world to read....Is it really just me "airing all our laundry" for others to read?  And as I sit and meditate on this,  I am reminded of the MANY adoption blogs that have brought me such comfort.  They have spurred me on when I felt hopeless and they have been such a wonderful blessing to our family.  There is something about seeing another family, even if you don't personally know them, go through almost the exact same circumstances that make you feel you are not alone.

As I posted last time...we have started the fundraising part of this process.  We still have much more to do and God has been faithful in opening doors to new ways we can creatively do this.  All of it has a learning "curve" and ALL of it feels somewhat awkward to say the least.  My hope is that in the end we can help assist other families in all that we have learned so that those who want to  love and raise an orphan BUT cannot afford the "agency fees" will NEVER let that stop them from trying.

When God first laid adoption on our hearts our first reaction was "HOW???" It seemed to BIG and we seemed too undeserving of such a blessing.  AND YET HE did not stop with the wooing..... He has called me to do many things but I can honestly say that THIS is the scariest one of all...why?  because it makes NO sense to the world to do something that seems this huge without having the resources readily available.
And yet I know the Bible teaches us that it is ONLY when we let HIM do the work that HE is able to receive ALL the glory.  I can assure you, that in our case ... it WILL be Him that gets all the glory.
I have imaginations of one day laying my eyes on the child my Lord has made just for our family.  A little one that I am already so enthralled and in love with....one in which I would already die for.  My imagination is that I will run to the highest peak or to the top of a building and just begin to shout out "Look what my Lord has done"....and begin to praise Him relentlessly without limitations on my shouts and my praises... NOT because He will give us a perfect child with no impending needs BUT because He WILL give us the perfect child for OUR family...one that was chosen before the beginning of time.  One in which will have to be provided for daily by HIM..as He does with our other three. But one that WILL be cherished and loved for a lifetime.

I read in His word (James 1: 22) that it says, that when He speaks to us that we must listen and be DOERS of what we read.  Only a couple verses down it reads "pure and genuine religion in the sight of God the Father means caring for orphans and widows in their distress and refusing to let the world corrupt you."
I know this certainly does NOT mean everyone is meant or supposed to adopt a child BUT it to me it does mean that IF your heart is open to bringing a child into your home and God has spoken to you about this, that you are to listen to Him and pray about what it may look like in your life.  To some it may mean taking a missions trip to an orphanage, sponsoring an orphan through an organization, supporting a family who is adopting and so on....  

I write all this to say to anyone who is considering taking this scripture "literally"... Please do not give up.  Many things (and people) may rise up against you....it may seem at times that this is too BIG and surely it is meant for someone else but not YOU.  Don't believe that...keep pursuing the ONE who is calling... Keep believing that He will finish what He has laid out before you.  God does not always choose the wise of this "world" to accomplish His will.  He chooses the ones that are willing to say , "yes Lord, yes..."  "